New Year's Letter
Each day of Reuben’s life I wrote him a letter. Each letter was a prayer of truth that I believed God was whispering over his life.
The only truth that mattered in the cracks of disappointment and confusion was that Reuben belongs to God first. We all have a “but now” that comes before our disappointment or “what we thought” was going to happen. Before I knew death was looming around the corner of my New Year, I spoke these words over Reuben’s life.
‘But now, this is what the LORD says— He who created you, Jacob, He who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.’ - Isaiah 43
There has to be a time where we have the courage to look “beyond” our circumstances, and when we do God has our “but now” moment. As this New Year is looming over us, we are sometimes confronted with “what now?” - instead of using your time to write down a plan, let God write yours down for you.
The truth always out weighs the outcome. The truth stands strong, even if the storms come. New Year goals sometimes give us the kick up the bum, the kick we need to set us off. But I believe we need more than that. We need our future to stand on something that isn’t jolted by our feelings and circumstances. Our future deserves a solid foundation. I believe the verse above is all we need to see us through the New Year.
1. Firstly, let God speak over our circumstances with His “Now”. This requires us to let go of our own agendas and plans. To know the truth, we need to go to the truth. The truth of our circumstances will often read differently to the Word of God, and that's why letting God speaking the "now" is crucial. When we was waiting on Reuben's DNA results to come through, knowing that it will let us know if he would live or die. I had a "what now" moment and out of that place flowed this verse 'but now the Lord'. I couldn't do anything and most of the time we don't have control over life's circumstances, we just need to choose our own "what now" or God's "but now".
2. Secondly, let’s not “fear” what the New Year may bring. Your plans may not happen. Are you okay with that? Half the time fear is fuelled by our “wants” and gains. Surrender is fears worst enemy. What do we surrender to? The love of God and all it brings, we are told fear will be cast out by the love of God. God's love speaks truth and our fear twists partial truth into lies. Half of want we want isn't bad and that isn't the point I'm making, I am saying fear can filter the truth. Fear can say "God doesn't love you if you don't get what you want" but when we look through the lense of Love, we can see Jesus is walking the path with us.
3. Thirdly, this is the solid truth that will carry us through every step of this next year - “you are a child of God”. We belong to God, we don’t belong to plans, goals and expectations of ourselves . There's no point getting to the end of the year fulfilling your diet plans, but letting your relationship with God die out. Don't get me wrong it's great to have a plan to get healthy, but it shouldn't ever be our first priority. If my only goal was to have a trouble free life, I would be chasing the wrong God. To live out this truth, we have to make "Jesus our first love". Let’s make Jesus our number one priority this New Year, and everything else will flow from that place of knowing 'who's we are' and 'who we are'.
It's been four years since Reuben left this world, and I have to remind myself that "I am God's child". I don't belong to disappointment or loss. I am starting out this New Year with God's "but now" and I know my steps will be determined because God is always true to His Word.
"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps" - Proverbs 16:9