Understanding the Father's Love has been a lifelong journey for me.It hasn't always been very clear, but there are times I have been enveloped by Gods intimacy. I haven't always been a Christian, and I wasn't raised in a Christian household. Yet God has always been there and walked through life with me.
I remember this one day, my six year old self strolled down the path near my house. In that moment, I knew I was being held, loved and known by something much more significant than me. I just didn't know the name of the Father, but the Father always knew mine. A radical radiating light has always chased after my heart, until that one day I said yes! I didn’t need much convincing, as it felt like a jigsaw of tender love that I somehow easily fitted into.When I saw my own humanness and God’s unspeakable holiness. I entered into a holy communion of mercy and grace. There was always a piece that was missing, and when the light found me, I made a vow to always follow It, no matter the cost.
Since saying “yes”, I experienced many costly moments, but it was never a loss because I gained a friendship whose love would never separate from me. There have been many people I had met in my past, that have sown the seed of the love of God within me. I see them as wells of the Father’s love that overflowed into my life. There's one lady I remember and would love to honour, and her name is Sue. She is with Jesus now. Sue was a well that overflowed into my life. She was the first person to tell me about Jesus. I was only five or six, and she bought me my first Christian cross. I believe her prayers and overflow followed me, and even now, I believe I walk in her generous and faithful prayers.
John 7:38-39 (NLT) Anyone who believes in me may come and drink! For the scripture declares, 'Rivers of living water will flow from his heart."
The water we speak of is the Father himself. Father, Son and Holy Spirit. God himself lavishes His love upon us and calls us children of God.1 john 3:1.
The well is to make His water accessible to us. We don't deserve such love, but we are given it freely. The Father sent His only son to die for our sins to make the living water accessible. Jesus is the well of life. John 3:16.The same well remains within us when we say yes” to being saved.
I have realised that there is an even deeper well when knowing the Father and the intimacy He shares. The closer I seem to be, the further away I feel. As I know there is a depth to His endless love that I cannot possibly reach, so all we can do is keep digging with the knowledge that we will be getting deeper but never reaching. There will be an overflow of the sovereignty, and we will be marvelled by the magnificent beauty of His intimacy towards us.
All I know is that the journey of being a daughter of the King of all Kings will take a lifetime to understand the Father's friendship and intimacy. Although each day I will seek, there will be more of the bottomless well of intimacy. I am always in wonder of how there are crevices I have never found, waves I haven't encountered, and lands I have never walked.
My story of becoming a daughter has not always proved to be easy. I have known agonising loss, severe pain, rejection from those who should have cared for me. I have been fatherless, homeless, and God had never separated Himself from the humanness and brokenness in all of this. Instead, He has put Himself in the centre of it all. The Father’s love never removed me from suffering, but it forced me to look up, seek for more, and find a mystery within the sorrowfulness. I have spent most of my life desperate. I remember from a young four year old, watching my brother fight for his life to a desperate teen who had so much taken from her. To the 25-year-old woman, who had to bury her child and now desperately seeking more of the Father's heart in my present.
If there is one piece of advice that I could ever give,I would say never don't stop seeking God. Despite your suffering, go deeper, and if you think you have known His love fully, then desire to go beyond the knowledge and understanding you hold. There's more of His passion for encountering! It's not always for your benefit. There's always someone that your overflow will affect. If it wasn't for those who said “yes” to going deeper, I wouldn't know love.
I want to softly end with a prayer that is close to my heart.“I pray that out of His glorious riches, He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your inner being so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:14-21